Tonight, I stepped out of the shower, and lost time looking in the mirror. Massive tangles of dark hair. Blue eyes. Pale skin. Plain. I wanted to see myself how other people see me. Whatever that means. I wanted an outside view of myself. Insides seem to matter less and less to the world around me, so I wanted to know who I was from the outside in. Needless to say, I was disappointed. I'm a mess. Plain Jane. I guess it's good that my outsides don't mirror my insides, because then I'd definitely look like a mess. I'd have a nose on my forehead or something. Does anyone else ever feel like they've lost themselves? Maybe she's somewhere in one of the books I've read. Maybe I left her in a song. Maybe I never really knew her at all.
